Dessa has been a real struggle for me lately. She recently got caught looking at some very bad pornographic websites. The sites she was looking at (for over an hour) were ones that her therapist has been told by porn addicts are some of the worst ones out there. Most of them were gays having sex, or things along that line.
So we are working on it in counseling. The disturbing thing is, I have a really bad feeling that she will end up choosing that kind of lifestyle. Last week, I caught her several times choosing episodes of House that specifically had to do with gays and/or sex. Years ago she was caught kissing Guilee, several times. She said the reason she started looking at the porn was because she saved a newspaper article at school last year about someone fighting for gay rights.
Knowing Dessa, and knowing how she acts already, I can just feel that she is going to break my heart. And I think someone is preparing me for it. I get daily little tidbits called "gems" from the LDS website. A good number of them the last few weeks have been talking about not giving up on children who have strayed, and topics along that line.
I can't help but worry about how far my little one will stray...while praying she won't.
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