Not moving

The drama of the last 2 days has been crazy! It is a very long story, but the short of it is, we are not moving. :)

I feel so at peace with this decision. I have been so stressed the last few weeks, but as soon as I finalized arrangements with my landlord to stay, I am so happy and calm now. I have even been able to tell the Smith's no, numerous times, and not feel bad about it.

Of course, I do feel bad that Cynthia is upset right now. But I don't feel at all guilty or upset thinking it is my fault. It isn't. I tried to make it work. But Amanda is just not emotionally stable enough right now to take care of my kids or to have us live with her (or anyone else in my opinion, but that is just me.)

My kids are SO excited to be going back to "their" school. Even though it was just 8 days at the other school, I think it really helped them realize how much they like where we are. So that is a good thing.

Also, it has made me go through the house and get rid of a lot of stuff. I still have to move everything out of the storage unit and put it all back. But at least now, it still feels like a semi fresh start.

Over all, I would not have chosen to go through this. But, since we have, I have learned a lot and hopefully my kids have also. We are all more committed than ever to us, and that is great!